"You're not being unproductive, you're just taking a breather."
After a year of hyperventilation and severe oxygen deprivation, this season has provided the rest and rehabilitation I need. The stress I feel in my lungs is only building strength. I will run again. And as much as I feel at times that God wants to see me miserable, I also know that my own assumptions about His motives have always been disproved by my experience of His grace. I was listening to a song, and the simplicity of this statement spoke volumes to my perspective on my current state of following God's will:
"If you believe me, it means you have to disbelieve yourself."
At first I thought that was really stupid. But I realized that all too often I value my bold opinions over God's merciful whispers. I've got to learn to disbelieve myself sometimes in order to grasp a vision that is bigger than the parameters of my theories.
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